Chapter 9

别人都说，初恋都是没有结果，
人人都说，远距离爱很难维持，
那么，我的爱情就是很难维持，然后没有结果？
遇见她之前，我不懂爱与幸福的含义，
遇见她之后，我懂了人们所说的爱与幸福，... Read More
和她的每一分每一秒，我忘了什么叫做伤心和寂寞，
她给了我人生中不可能忘记的甜酸苦辣，
baby, i just want to tell u i cant breath without u,
就在我发现终于有她陪我度过每年的佳节时，她却不在我的身边了，
虽然我们享用着同样的星球和天空，但是我们之间已隔着一片大海洋，
空气中再也没有她的香味，视线里再也没有她的笑容， 手中里再也没有她的体温，
每晚的入眠都要让头脑回顾着她的影子，每早的睡醒都想着希望她就睡在旁边，
虽然我们留下了很多一起开心的照片，但是我都不想去看， 害怕自己忍不住眼泪的滑落，
难道我们之间就只留下两年的回亿？难道我们之间就只留下想念？
成经彼此答应会一起征明全世界，初恋不是只有伤心的结局， 远距离爱是会让彼此更加想念对方，我们能做到吗？
baby, u took away my confident, u stole my feeling,
please baby please, promise me u will return them to me one day in the future,
and i will promise , ur hand will not be release again,
u r my only and forever~

Chapter 8

what will u feel when ur girlfriend,

1) never check on ur blog,
2) never sms u,
3) will only reply u after u sms her, with some short message that can be finish read within 1sec,
4) nvr ask anything about ur parents when u tell her ur parents was in hospital,
5) will only tell u that she dream of u after u tell her u dream of her,
6) nvr do wat as she promise u,
7) stop miss call u to wake u up in the early morning when u told her that whenever she miss call u is the time u taking breakfast,
8) tell u that she nvr sms u is becos u ever told her that she is always in ur heart that u wont feel lonely,
9) every time give u some reasons to refuse on MSN to chat with u, eventhough on weekends night,
10) will only reply wat u ask during MSN conversation chat, go and read some articles at other website wen u din ask anything,

i ever believe, distance love can last long, with her by my side,
i try to believe distance love nvr last without her by my side.....

i have try so hard to manage this relations, untill sometimes i feel like giving up....
but one thing i m very sure is i need her so much, she is the impulse that motivate me to going furthermore into harder challenges...




时间它能不能倒退一点
停格在你晴天笑脸

(张智成-换日线 line 13&14; 28&29; 41&42)

Chapter 7

I still remember when i was still a kid,

- the 1st thing i remember after i gain the ability of memorize is the scene of ultraman
- saw a black monster under my grandmother bed when my mother was feeding me milk
- step on the vegetable which my grandfather plant and get beaten by him seriously
- i have a dream which someone shoot an arrow to me and i woke up in the midnight
- my kindergarten teacher ask me why i din wear underpants when she trying to try a new pant on me, and all my new friends laugh at me
- wrote a love letter to my female friend in kindergarten
- playing around my dad when he is asleep and get beaten by him after he was wake by me
- watch 'Power Rangers' every night at 8.30pm and 'Along' at 9pm
- i cried and run to my grandmother when i was looking at a container and imagine it was a ghost
- i scare of yolk after i watch a cartoon from cartoon network which show a yolk turning to a monster
- ask my little brother to find a toy and end out he fall down from a double level bed and a lot of blood was flowing out from his mouth and get scolded by my parents, end out he got a vampire teeth now
- always scare my brother with something scary when he duwan to listen to my order
- always late to my primary school due to my cousin wake up late
- i get 1st rank for 2 years during my kindergarten study
- i was scare of darkness
- running around to let my grandmother chase me when she wanted to beat me and i locked myself up in the toilet until she cool down her temper
- give 4d numbers to my auntie and they win for the 1st prize for several time
- always fighting with my cousin next door for no reason
- play 'ultraman fight monster' with my little brother every night on our bed
- i get to know who is my dad and mom when they bought 'lego toys' for me n my brother
- i tear off my cousin magazines secretly to collect a full episode of a comic
- i stole a magnet from my friend pencil box during rest time in primary school
- 1st time see my mom cry in front of me when my grandfather pass away
- my father side grandfather pass away after a year my mother side grandfather pass away
- envy of my friends for having their parents by their side when they have problems while my parents were working at other oversea
- scare of ride on an aeroplane because i thought aeroplane was travel into out space
- scare of pointing at the moon cause of the moon might cut my ear off
- i cried and run to my grandmother wen i got cut on my finger because i scare my finger might snap into two
- envy my little brother because my mom care him more than me
- hate to become big brother because my family always blame me when i fight with my little brother
- remember a scene which my brother open the car door when my auntie was driving on highroad
- my hand was clip at the car door window when i trying to close the window
- chased by a dog when my grandmother brought me go for tuition
- me and my little brother caught a ladybug and kept it for fun, the ladybug was gone missing after 2 days
- my ear got cut by a barber and was bleeding when i go for saloon, end out i have phobia when i go to saloon to get my haircut

Chapter 6

the 2nd day sun rise with my hand phone alarm rang at 7.30am, i wake up and trying to tidy up myself, just right i open my room door, u was there at the main door....
"good morning" from both of us to each other.... and "bye bye" when u step ur foot to outside....
my mind was so empty to send any other words out from my mouth.... (due to sleep for less than 8 hours + just wake up no longer + sensitive 'incident' happened last night -_- )

at that day, there was a class which we both attend together, i was so nervous to face u, so i just talk with my friends for the whole class..... and look at ur backside walk outside from the classroom after the class end....
due to my afternoon class, i stay in college and u was already back to home....
i cant concentrate during my afternoon class because of thinking what should i talk to u when i see u, there was 2 option struggling inside my head: 1st; last night what i told u was just a joke, dun put in mind k? haha..... 2nd; ermmm...ermm.. so whats ur decision? wan to try 1st?
my brain was so... messy ~

after the class end, our housemates said need to go supermarket buy some vege for dinner, and i follow too....
the 2 option keep struggling me until i went shopping, suddenly, i saw there is some sandwiches selling at the supermarket, so, i decide to make my 1st call to u.... search ur phone number from my phonebook and i dial it.... after a few ringing sound, u answer the phone....
ur sweet voice has made me feel 10xtimes nervous, and so i ask with my nervous feeling "ermm hi.... do u feel hungry ? i m in supermarket now, i can buy something for u if u wan...." after the "yes" answer from u, i bought some sandwiches for both of us....
honestly, this is the 1st time i hear a female friend voice from the phone and the 1st time i buy something for a female friend at age 17, abit shame ya >_< or its very common to the world ? @_@
after all the shopping, i went back to our hostel with the sandwiches i bought....
we ate together in ur room and have some chit-chat with the other housemates....
after half hour chit-chat, I finally have the chance to talk with u alone with the leaving of our housemates.... and so, i thicken up my face and ask u, "what is the answer?" << SHAME !!!
and u was just silent there and thinking of something in ur mind, then u said "dunno, i m nt sure, give me more time to think". that was quite a disappointed answer from u, i was sad n embarrasing after listen to ur answer.... well, what to do, i cant stop u from giving u more time to think ya ~
and so, we change our topic to some others topic....
during our dinner, i was staring at u secretly, the more i look at u, the more i feel wan to OWN u, the more i wan u to belong to me !!!! ROAR !!!! i m also a man ya -_-lll
after finish dinner, i find a chance again where there was only u n me and i double thicken my face again to ask u, "how long u need to think for the answer?" u answer me with ur mouth smiling "why u so rush?" and i was.... losing words to speak out....
u continue again after a few second "ermmm ok la.... we try 1st la", after i hear it, i was extremely happy and I hold on to ur hand tightly for few minutes.... << the proof of 'agreement' ya ~~
and so there was a new event appeared in my life since 2007/04/25 untill every year with the same month n day !!!! an important day for u and me which u forget so easily -_-

and so, we have face so many things togther eversince, there were sweet memories, sour jealousy, bitter apart and spicy challenges.... we share each other happy and sad feeling together, we happy, we sad, we angry, U cry.... all with each other by our side to share with....

we hold each other hand
we hug each other body
we kiss each other lips
we feel each other body temper

i am so desperately wish for u are my only n forever....


thousand of words also cant match this 3 words....


~I Love You~

Chapter 5

Hmmmm.... still in memories ~

our first sight is at 8am in the morning after a night u move in~
an old fashion spec, ponytail with all ur hair being tied to ur back and leaving ur forehead empty, long sleeve shirt, long pant....
i remove my eyesight after the first sight... n holymama !!

after the study day end n return to our hostel,
i went upstairs and to ur room trying to know ur name,
u lay on ur bed, with both ur long leg wave gently, mp3 earphone hanged at ur ear, holding a book on ur hand,
n wow, this is a hardworking girl.... but then after i approach nearly enough to see the book, C-O-M-I-C ~_~
in that few hours, we get to know each other name and haved some chit chat....

a random day within the 1st week, there was a sudden heavy fall of rain,
guess what, u trying to rush into the rainfall to reach a car....
unfortunately/luckily, my head turned to ur side and stopped u....

i borrow an umbrella from a friend and cover u to reach the car....
finally, no 'thank you' from u ( maybe the rainfall sound is too noisy/my hearing problem )
bringing along the rain water at the bottom of my trouser leg, i return the umbrella and sit
( i felt happy, cos I have the chance to show my gentleman manner to all of my friends xD )

a random day of the 2nd week after we met, i went upstair to enjoy cool air,
u was there sitting on a mattress, lay both of ur long leg on the mattress, n holding ***** book on ur hand, reading the book u hold while chit chat with other friends....
that night, i have no idea why my sight cannot leave the area where u are sitting there....
it seems that is only 1 answer to solve this weird 'phenomena' which is 'answer'@_@
well, i think the word which Chinese people owez say happend on me, maybe ~~~~~
'day long born feel' ?! 'one sight center feel' ?! ' or maybe that night is full moon ya, who knows....
to empty out my brain, i went to sleep.....

seconds by seconds, minutes by minutes, hours by hours, days by days,
the angel side of me lose to the evil side of me, i decide to step to the 1st step of 'MyStory'
random night at 4th week, i went to the room of urs with just me n u.... then
{ C-E-N-S-O-R-E-D }
the process shoud be censored, its embarrasing !!!!!!!!!!! ( ** not dirty things, dont simply think)
after the process of mine, u told me that " give me more time to think, k ~ "
well.... at least my 1st try in my whole life is not a 'No' answer.... consider lucky ~ so i went to sleep, in my own room of course....
that night i cant fall asleep, my brain cant rest, my thought just keep knot up....

{ ~to be continue~ }

Chapter 4

This is my last day in Miri...
many sweet memories in Miri...
don't want to leave Miri...
I will miss Miri...

Chapter 3

This is, us !!